| Hv u evr felt lke ths? |
the sky was as black as the road, as black as this day
she couldn't take it anymore
the pain
the confusion
it was too much
she had to leave
she had to go
she just jumped in the car and left
there had to be somewhere else
someone else
someone she could talk to
someone who would get it
no one here got it
no one here got her
she was a waste of space
she wanted to taste something different
feel something new
something that she could do to cover it
to mask it
to releive it
to escape it
the pain
it always came back to that
it ruled her life
destroyed it
weighed it down
clipped its wings
broke its heart
she had to get away
so she ran
she drove
to find somewhere for her life to start |
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| free write |
mind is racing
in a daze
face is blazing
break from haze
all around me
in my head
song unwritten
words unread
feet are acheing
moving fast
heart is breaking
not meant to last
jumping higher
falling free
from the real world
to you and me. |
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| Attempting the Impossible |
Impossible
can't be done
trying
failing every one
Catching water
breath is hot
forming words
from formless thoughts
constant circle
never ending
never slowing
always spinning
going deeper
even farther
trying
climbing
gasping harder
twists and turns
getting dizzy
life is hurried
way too busy
never somewhere
always lost
always flowing
never caught
stuck in time
stuck in space
nowhere's home
endless race
working harder
slowly rising
see the sun
so surprising
not so dark
after all
don't look down
you might fall
up and over
at the top
soaring higher
never stop
flying fast
through the stars
see a planet
much like ours
this one's better
nicer here
no more doubt
no more fear
think I'll stay
far away
far from there
brighter day
Love this place
feels like home
seems impossible?
not for some |
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| A Way Out |
Have you ever felt like you just didn't belong somewhere?
Like you need to be somewhere else?
Like where you are just doesn't fit your life?
This place isn't made for you.
It's made for people who need structure.
For people who need to be watched 24/7.
For people who can't take care of themselves.
It's not made for you.
So why are you here?
Because they say you have to be.
Because they are afraid of what you might do if you are allowed to think for yourself.
Instead of them telling you what to think.
You don't want to be here anymore.
You are having deja vu.
You've felt this way before.
You remember now.
You didn't belong here then.
Why did you think you would belong here now?
Maybe because you didn't know what to do.
You went for the easy route.
You went for the safehouse.
And now you're trapped.
Your support system believes you belong here.
It agreed with you last time.
This time...
You want to be somewhere else.
Now.
You want to go.
You just don't belong here.
It just doesn't fit.
And you don't now what to do.
You have no idea what to do.
But leave. |
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| Your Move |
We've been playing this game for a while. Going back and forth. Watching so carefully. Hoping not to make the wrong move. You went left. I went right. You came right. I moved left. The closer we came the further away you seemed to be. It's come down to this. I made my move. What now? |
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| Stress |
She could hear her name coming from everywhere. There were too many voices. What did they want? They wanted everything. She couldn't. She couldn't be everything for everyone. They were screaming. No, not the others. The ones in her head. They didn't know what to do either. She panicked. She stopped trying to listen. She just shut down. Her office wasn't far. She ran until she found the safety of her desk, and proceeded to slowly crack under pressure. |
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| Relief |
It feels so good not being the odd ball out. |
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| Smile |
People thought she was strange.
Which is funny because she thought people were strange.
People didn't know why she smiled.
She didn't know why people didn't smile.
People told her she was weird.
She just smiled at them and stared.
Smiling made her happy.
What's wrong with that? |
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| Somebody Save Me |
It wasn't always like this. It couldn't have been. Yet I can't remember a time when it wasn't. I delve into my memories, trying to think of something, anything, to tell me that it was differant. But I can't. I can't think of anything. Somebody save me. |
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